A bump in the road.

I suppose that an update is in order now that my scan results are complete.  Of greatest concern is a mass in my pelvic area, more specifically my psoas muscle.   My oncologist has also expressed concerned about growing lung nodules.  I'm questioning his accuracy on this, at the moment.
Obviously the Nexavar is not effective on muscle based tumors.  It's time for a new drug and a new approach. On Monday my new drug, Votrient will be available to me.   First dose will be bedtime Monday night.  The side affects appear to be quite similar to Nexavar.  Ill soon find out if that is the case for me.
Emotionally, I am doing reasonably ok.  It's another bump in the road, but I'm still full of fight.  I will battle the beast with as much enthusiasm as I have in the past.
Lastly I need to comment on the impact that cancer has had on my relationships.  In observing people's reactions to my illness, I have learned a lot about the quality of my relationships with them.  There is a fairly long list of individuals who messaged me after scans inquiring about results.   There are some who have yet to indicate any interest.  My kids rallied around me and lifted me up during the time of shock after receiving awful news.  There are others whom I counted on in the past who are conspicuously absent.  And it's fine.  I'm afraid I've been oh so guilty in the past of asking more of certain people than they really wished to give.  Somehow I have managed to grow enough personally that I'm no longer experiencing pain or disappointment over these things.  It is what it is and people are who they are.  I have come to accept the death of these relationships.  I am at peace.
As I am still reeling a wee bit, emotionally, this blog entry may reflect that some.  More later, after the dust settles.